Invitation to a healing adventure in Scotland

I embark upon the next leg of my personal healing and growing adventure by joining the Aura Mediator training in Scotland in April. You are invited to join the adventure and receive an Aura Transformation.

We need clients with which to practice. I've heard that the energy and vibe at these trainings are very special, with nine clients, six students, and one trainer. And the quality of your Aura Transformation is just as excellent as if you worked with an experienced Aura Mediator - it's all about turning on your own energy possibilities, and it's all in you already. 

Why might a person be interested in an Aura Transformation?
I felt pulled to have an Aura Transformation after hearing that it is like a new energy skin, an upgrade in one's energy boundary, a deeper connection to purpose and ability to follow through on said purpose, and matching the energy of our kids.

The first thing I noticed after my Aura Transformation was feeling more solid in my body, and this continues to grow. I am connecting more easily to intuition and my follow through is coming along with more ease. During my Aura Transformation I connected with the very subtle unconscious decision to be invisible, and that old pattern is falling away. Being more visible and actively engaged in my life is arising with excitement and internal agreement.

In the past, I would have to work with many of my parts to make decisions, feeling unsure of what was the authentic path forward for me. Now it's like indecision is melting and clarity emerges suddenly.

Soon after my Aura Transformation I set about making plans for four trips this spring - this is unheard of for me. My old pattern was a dominant feeling of "how can I know what I will need next month, in two months, in three months? I can't plan that far ahead!" But now I have some deep knowings and instincts that pull me forward - and a newer trust in myself that even if the trips turn out to be duds, I can handle it better than ever before. 

And more positive changes developing in so many arenas and so many levels.

I will mention that I have had some big anxiety waves - it feels like a deep cleaning of the old energy - and after each wave passes, I get more clarity, more confidence, more solid in me. It's what I've been after for a long, long time, and I am happy to be on this trajectory. And one of the coolest things is that the Aura Transformation takes about 1.5 years to really solidify, so there is more to develop from just this one energy treatment.

If this sound intriguing, here is an excerpt of what Sarah Jennings, trainer for the upcoming program, has to say about Aura Transformations:

People who are attracted to AuraTransformation tend to have one or two or ALL of the following:

• Are wanting to grow, expand their consciousness, take big leaps on their healing journey.

• Want to maximize their energy levels, step into their mission/dharma more fully.

• Need to do loads of energy or body work everyday just to be ‘ok’***[this was me]

• Feel that life is happening to them. Somehow they are floating through life.

• Feel disconnected, have lost the drive and focus. Where has it gone?

• Feel they lack energetic protection, are overwhelmed around a lot of people. Need to isolate from people a lot. ***[this was me]

• They work closely with people everyday. They don't want to absorb or take people's 'stuff' home such as nurses, counsellors, massage therapists, teachers, people in leadership and energy workers.

• Feel knackered or frazzled easily around their children or grandchildren. ***[this was me]

• Want to align to the young people of today (Crystal & Indigo children), to be on the same wavelength and communicate better with them (certainly parents, carers and teachers of young people born today to now 35 years old)

• Know that there must be another way.

• Have done a lot of work and want to clear the last karmic, ancestral, emotional patterns that keep repeating.

• People who love the feeling of burning for their passion and feeling the clarity of living and speaking their truth and just want to get stuff done!
  
  AuraTransformation is an uber grounding treatment that can take over a year to fully integrate. It really helps you land on earth, it helps humans feel better in their skin and helps them reclaim their power and fill the energy coffers up to be able to make more happen in their lives for real- not just dream, and wish and think about it.

You can read Sarah Jennings' full post on facebook.

If this intrigues you, I invite you to check out this ebook or this 2 hour in-depth video.  These two resources have lots more info about what exactly is an Aura Transformation.

The details:

• Scotland - seaside town near Edinburgh

• April 21-23 (needed for sessions for two days)

• £170 (I believe this is about half the normal rate)

• Hands on sessions (4-6 hours), which feel good and healing - and then the benefits keep growing for the next year or more. 

And if you're not ready to travel to Scotland for this experience, but are interested in an Aura Transformation, I will be offering this once I complete my training.

With love,
Marta
PS - none of this is to suggest that my deep passion in Internal Family Systems has lessened. I'm finding the new aura to be a great companion to the deep healing that IFS offers. The new aura seems to be expediting my own personal process with IFS, and attuning me even better to clients. 

Photo by Bjorn Snelders on Unsplash

Managing Anxiety

Dear Ones,
Obviously, anxiety is a pretty big topic. People dedicate their lives to studying it, writing about it, helping people with it. I'm pretty passionate about it myself, because when it takes over, I've found it can blind the whole body and mind to other possibilities. It's hard to find the deeper truth of who we are when anxiety flows.

And yet, even though anxiety creates many uncomfortable feelings - we can have so much compassion for where it comes from. There are always reasons. There's always a history or story or ancestral or karmic link to why anxiety shows up. The reasons are real, and those reasons can be healed and released. 

We can be kind and warm to anxiety, welcome it,
learn from it, transform it.

Going on a journey to heal anxiety will definitely help you get to know yourself better as each layer comes up to heal and release. Healing anxiety is letting go of old energy and welcoming in more of the possibilities of you, honing in on purpose and meaning that's unique to you.

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Addressing anxiety falls into two categories - healing and coping/managing.

Both ways are useful! Both are needed! You might lean one way or the other, and following your own intuition and what excites you or calls to you or pulls you in will lead you on the best path for you.

Below are several tools that I use regularly for coping with and managing anxiety. The next email will contain my favorite tools for transforming and healing anxiety. 

• Shaking and trembling. When fear runs through the body, adrenaline releases. In fight or flight, the adrenaline is put to use right away through action. When that adrenaline charge races, I shake and wiggle and make weird sounds. Or find the way to move your body that appeals to you - dancing, jogging, wrestling. I love that this is free and easy!
  
  Here's a cool video showing an impala playing dead (freeze) while under attack from a cheetah, and when the danger has passed, it moves to trembling and shaking, and then it suddenly runs away. Some people say the trauma doesn’t get stuck if it is released through trembling and shaking and movement. Trigger warning - the cheetah has the impala already tackled, and swings its neck around a bit, but the impala does escape. Impala in and slowly out of collapsed immobility - YouTube
   

• Alternatively, sometimes the anxiety needs a good snuggle under the covers. Listen to your body, see what it most wants. Curled up, soft belly protected, maybe under blankets. I've found that doing this with intention shifts the freeze feeling faster than trying to push through it or ignore it. 
   

• Rub this Parasympathetic essential oil behind the ears. I used this a ton during the pandemic, and now I use it when I'm in the height of distress. An easy trick that really does seem to help in the moment.
   

• If you enjoy guided meditations, here is one I created for Gently Connecting with Anxiety. (I included it in the last letter as well.)

There are so many ways to address anxiety, and perhaps you have other tools that are working well for you. I'm curious to know what you turn to when anxiety comes up, if you'd like to share!

With love,
marta

Photo by Ante Gudelj on Unsplash

Dealing with and healing anxiety

Many people are dealing with high levels of anxiety - maybe this has been true for a long time - and maybe something is different at this time. 

We don't have to know the reasons behind your personal anxiety in order to bring deep healing to it. Sometimes the content and the knowing helps, but it definitely is not necessary. Those thinking and analyzing parts of you can rest! They don't have to know it all or do the healing work!

I have so much I want to share with you about living with and healing anxiety. I wrote a big bunch of stuff and realized it's too much for one email. Do people read long emails these days? 

I've divided this into two emails, and the next email will include some of my current favorite tools.

Anxiety is not my steady companion it used to be, where it once completely intertwined into my cells and fibers of my being. Instead, it rises up on occasion. Sometimes fierce and overwhelming, sometimes a mild holding me into a frozen place for a patch of time. There's hope for all of us!

Below is a letter I wrote to myself regarding my times of anxiety:

Dear Marta ~
You are not your anxiety. That is one state of being and it is not permanent. You/we/me are growing bigger and more capable all the time. The soul shines forth. This anxiety is not the life sentence you once believed. We can ground ourselves in the hope of so many positive changes under way.

I see the root belief that "I am doing it wrong", and I see the many sources that contribute to this old, dusty belief. 
But even this belief is undergoing change.

The clear intention of moving my whole being, every cell in my body to the "field beyond right and wrong doing"...this intention comes to life more and more each day, and more and more after each passing wave of anxiety.

I wish this for others too. I wish them to know that anxiety is not the truth of them, it is part of a collection of hard working energies that have tried so hard to have a meaningful human experience. Blessings and love to these valiant and dedicated parts. 
 

So, my friends, a reminder that you are bigger than any anxious feelings (or depression, or anger, or addictive behavior). Internal Family Systems calls this Self Energy - the aspect of you that's capable of being with any feeling or any experience, that's bigger than any feeling or experience. Some might call this the Soul or Spirit or the Essence of who we are. 

To support this remembering of the deeper truths of who we are, here's a meditation for Gently Connecting with Anxiety. It touches on the themes of self compassion, inward listening, connection to Source.

In love, compassion, and connection,
Marta

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en*Joy*ment

Hello!

In my opinion, we embark upon healing, not just to return to a baseline of being ok, but to welcome and awaken our natural essence of joy, beauty, and sharing our gifts. Not to push past the times that are needed for deep healing, or to use joy as a cover up for what needs attention and care. As time goes on in my healing and growing journey, I believe that bounteous joy is a direct result of releasing old traumas and burdens.

I'd love to hear from you what's lighting you up these days, from the tiniest bit to something life changing. Here are a few things that are inspiring me and sparking joy in my life these days.

Grandma's Peach Custard Pie
I make this every summer when the peaches are ripe. It's a hit, no matter who I serve it to. Deceptively simple, dependent upon flavorful peaches. I seem to recall that mealy peaches will work out as well and the texture is great once they are cooked. So wondeful to share with people I love.

1 unbaked pie crust
4-6 ripe peaches
1 cup heavy cream
1/4 cup flour
1/2 cup sugar
fresh nutmeg

I usually peel most of the peel off the peaches but leave a little for color and nutrition. My parents don't peel the peaches at all. So it's up to you.

~ Mix together flour and sugar. I usually use less than 1/2 cup sugar, assuming the peaches are sweet. Sprinkle half of the flour/sugar mixture over the bottom of the crust.
~ Line the crust with peaches. Your choice of halves, slices, or chunks.
~ Sprinkle the rest of the flour/sugar mixture over the peaches.
~ Pour cup of cream over the top. I like to scooch any exposed flour/sugar into the cream.
~ Sprinkle with freshly grated nutmeg.

Bake at 375 for 45--55 minutes. Crust should be cooked through, and cream should be bubbling and thickening.

Cool before serving. When cool or chilled, the filling will firm up to near custard-like consistency.
This recipe works great with gluten free flour and coconut sugar.

Oracle Decks
I'm dabbling in Oracle Decks and enjoying them so much! If you come to my house for a coaching I might offer you an Angel Oracle Card. As one of my friends says, it's another avenue to tap into one's intuition.

Wild Kuan YIn Oracle Deck by Alana Fairchild
Angel Guide Oracle Deck by Kyle Gray

Biofield Tuning
Eileen McCusick has a bunch for free and for sale on her website. I've listened to the one for healing viruses a number of times - when I get a cold sore, when I had covid, when I've started to get a cold. It headed off a cold sore at least once, and at the very least I find it relaxing and supportive.
Free Biofield Tuning for Viruses by Eileen McKusick
Lions Gate Tuning
I don't agree with everything that Eileen says ("Control your inner critic! If you can't do it, who can?"), but I appreciate the gift she brings and ignore the stuff that doesn't resonate for me.

If you're in Chicago:
Zero Waste Grocery
I simply adore ordering dry goods from TinyShop, a zero waste grocery in Chicago. Christine, the owner, is so wonderful and sparkly and fun to interact with. While she is building out her new location in Logan Square, one can order for delivery or pickup. It's so satisfying to get my goods in a glass jar and return the glass jar for more reusable glass jars!

Star Farm CSA
I've held off on joining a Community Supported Agriculture subscription because I was afraid of getting food that I didn't want to cook. But Star Farm really called to me. It's located in Chicago, from what I understand it's in an area that suffers from food deserts. They give away produce to people in the neighborhood, and they offer job training for organic farming and agriculture. Every week I feel like I'm opening a present to see what's in my bag, and I'm able to use most of it. And they introduced me to Saturn Peaches! I look forward to joining one of their monthly dinners and/or volunteer opportunities soon.

I'm looking for:
Good videos on kundalini yoga. I love Breath of Fire and the little bit of video classes I've done, I've found the movements appeal to me right now. I don't love the chanting at the moment. Do you have any kundalini yoga videos that you love? Or Chicago teachers?

I really hope to:
Go to a Full Moon Jam soon! I keep getting distracted each time the full moon comes around. Have you been?

I'm sending you heartful and joyful wishes!
With love,
Marta
Photo by Alfred Schrock on Unsplash

Book Club

Heart-full ones,
So much is inflamed right now. Inflammation from the microscopic to the personal to the collective to the global:
~ Covid/health
~ Suicides
~ Fractured personal relationships
~ Gun violence
~ Pro life/pro choice
~ Inflation
~ Cancel culture
~ Twitter mobs
~ Wars/nuclear potential
~ Climate crisis

It can make one feel rather helpless, with one issue after another suffering from intractable fights. Possibly all these polarized issues are rising to the surface to shine a spotlight on them, and the way we've tried to solve them that so far has not worked.

Big change is needed.

I'm totally taken by a book I'm reading, one that is impacting my life at the deepest level, "The More Beautiful World Our Hearts Know is Possible" by Charles Eisenstein.

"We live today at a moment of transition between worlds. The institutions that have borne us through the centuries have lost their vitality; only with increasing self-delusion can we pretend they are sustainable. Our systems of money, politics, energy, medicine, education, and more are no longer delivering the benefits they once did (or seemed to). Their Utopian promise, so inspiring a century ago, recedes further every year. Millions of us know this; more and more, we hardly bother to pretend otherwise. Yet we seem helpless to change, helpless even to stop participating in industrial civilization's rush over the cliff."

This book gives me hope.
It gives me courage to face head on the looming catastrophes.
And not try harder.
Try different.
Be different.

I invite you to join me in a book club to explore a powerful possibility. A possibility of another way. A possibility of ease, and a different way to embrace internal change. A possibility of interconnections, from the most personal level to the global. Exploring the power of the Story that is woven into the fabric of our society.

I believe that this book is a way to embrace a different way, and what's needed to weave in the New Story. This can be one layer of learning a new way, together, in community.

We'll invite in all our parts to explore the New Story of Interbeing - hopeful parts, skeptical parts, despairing parts, and whatever else comes up for you. One key to living the New Story is to integrate it on a deep level in each of our psyches, and that involves welcoming all of our parts into the dialogue.

BOOK CLUB - The More Beautiful World Our Hearts Know is Possible
Four Sunday evenings, 7-8 pm CDT
July 10th
July 17th
July 24th
July 31st
FREE!

We'll be meeting on zoom.
Sign up here.

Read more here.

Buy the book at Bookshop:
The More Beautiful World Our Hearts Know Is Possible a book by Charles Eisenstein (bookshop.org)
Or Amazon:
The More Beautiful World Our Hearts Know Is Possible (Sacred Activism): Eisenstein, Charles: 9781583947241: Books: Amazon.com

With love and hope and possibility,
marta

Real Change

Real change does not come through force, pressure, manipulation or shame. Real change is a deep energy that leans toward internal freedom, love, and connection.

Real change may not feel good all the time, but it wants evolution. Evolving can be messy, uncomfortable, painful. Evolution wants real change.

Force is pressure, conformity, fear. It may get results for a while, but it is askew, off center. The intentions may be noble, but forcing results in harm on some level. Shame may get results, but it leaves a mark deep within. Threat of disconnection may motivate but at a cost to the person or the relationship. 

Real change is unlimited.
Forcing an outcome is limited. You perhaps get yourself to comply, or others to comply, but it's not deep or expansive. 

Real change leans in, listens, accepts. There will be grief. Real change may have an intention, a goal, but the end result will be even more beautiful. Even if heartbreak is involved.

We don't know where real change leads.  

How can you lean towards yourself in this moment? What wants to change in you? What wants some love in you?

With love,
Marta

PS - I speak of this from experience. I have tried the route of forcing change many, many times, both for myself and trying to force those I love. It doesn't feel good and no one wins in this way. Taking the risk of releasing control is a gift to all involved.

PPS - If you're judging and blaming others, undoubtedly, you are also judging and blaming yourself. True acceptance of yourself helps you accept others. True acceptance of others helps you accept yourself. It goes both ways. 

PPPS - photo by Arno Gourdol
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