It’s not about being louder

Communicating with truth and power.

Letting go of FORCE in your communication will actually enhance your effectiveness.

As our hearts break as more and more societal illness comes to the surface, as the hidden power dynamics become visible and known, the yelling and chaos seems to build.

We all grapple with the reveals, the changes, pinballing from one disaster to another.

What Happens When the Throat Becomes Free

Freeing your throat and voice channel brings the body, mind and spirit into coherence. Actions and communication from this alignment tap into true power, the kind of power vs force.

Force = yelling; the shoulds

Power = silence, a whisper, a sigh, embodied words, singing, grieving, keening, wailing, linking arms, presence.

It’s Not About Volume, It’s About Coherence

It’s not about the volume. It’s about the coherence, the inner agreement, tapping into your soul level.

We might try to “get it right”, but even that is a trap. It’s not about doing it better, getting it right, perfection.

I daresay we’re in a time of surrender and taking the risk to try something new.

Your Voice-Throat Portal

Laura Kimmel, and I will be leading Your Voice-Throat Portal - energy healing and interactive sessions.

If you know your throat is blocked, the emotions don’t flow,

If you have a thyroid imbalance,

If you think and talk more than you feel,

If you freeze under pressure, you lose the words when it matters,

If you want embodied presence supporting all your sounds,

If you want to let go of perfectionism and enjoy and express,

Then let’s talk. Laura and I are putting together Accelerated Expansion packages. Be first on the list to apply.

Freeing the throat - leading from the heart, opening the flow for courage, clearing the path for more of YOU.

Head + Heart vs AI

Why human wisdom goes beyond AI

Artificial intelligence is top of mind for many, bringing questions - what is humanity’s role, purpose, what are our gifts, and what choices do we make in relation to AI.

Head plus heart = greater than AI.

As the "intelligence" of AI grows, it already, at times, surpasses certain human brain power. The greatest chess champions bested by Stockfish for example.

But the brain, in partnership with our nervous systems, sensory abilities, heart, and spirit = unique and unbeatable. AI will never come close to our human gifts in this way.

When AI mimics human connection (and why it feels strange)

Yes, AI has learned relational soothing - but holy moly, doesn't it feel weird when AI tells you how wonderful you are???

It makes me laugh when Chatgpt affirms my style of writing.

It's so absurd. And yet can feel weirdly alluring when in vulnerable moments.

Living with AI

I'm not anti-AI, though I'm strongly distrustful and very cautious about it. For me, it helps with tech problems.  I just used ChatGPT last night to learn how to do an automation thing for this newsletter. It’s so funny to me how it says “you’re in the perfect place….good catch….this is the moment where most people get tripped up…”

Laura makes very beautiful decorations with it, and we're using AI-assisted pictures for this Throat-Voice Portal. I love what she was able to do in partnering with AI. (Take a look at our webpage to see the pictures!)

And really, AI is woven into so many things now, we can't actually avoid it unless one goes off grid.

The limit effects of AI

I see us playing in the AI field, which has limits and layers. We’re in a sort of box. There are layers of AI that we don't know about or maybe called conspiracy theories at this point. We can't necessarily UNDO these layers, at least at this moment in time.

What we can do is choose to expand beyond those layers into more organic, cosmic energy. This energy has no limits to it.

The multiverse that AI keeps us contained in, has limits and lots of control. Lots of suffering. Lots of feeding off of human suffering. This reality does not want us to realize there is a bigger, vaster reality, with more potential, more enjoyment, and much more freedom for us.

So rather than avoiding it, and also rather than embracing it, we need to amplify our own human gifts.

Our next level of expansion

The "I-think, therefore-I-am" model dominated certain areas of the world since the Enlightenment - believing brain power elevated us above nature. This led to many problems but also some fantastic problem solving.

I think we’ve reached our limit in this realm of head being supreme. What’s the next frontier for us?

The power of Head + Heart + Spirit

Our special package of head + heart + sensory abilities + spirit, this is where we excel.

This is our human gift. Freeing and inhabiting all these aspects of us, this is the pathway to expansion, freedom, expression, and joy.

Why the throat portal matters

To reconnect the head and heart, freeing the throat pathway becomes essential.

Our ancestors and our souls have learned severe lessons about speaking up, speaking out, taking stands that led to extreme endings, violent endings. These still live in our energy fields, and our neck, throat and voice remember.

Fortunately we have amazing tools to release these old energies and adaptive patterns. No matter how you address your throat - bringing voice here brings healing to your whole being. While the Throat-Voice Portal first round has ended, you can work with me 1:1 in Inner Artist sessions.

And coming soon - accelerated transformation packages with Laura Kimmel and me. Email to be top of the list for applications. Marta@InnerArtistry.space.

When pressure brings up panic

The connection between stage fright, anxiety, and past lives

Do you know this situation:

Sweating, shaking, cotton mouth, you need to pee. Your brain doesn’t feel right. You can’t find your thoughts, much less put them into words.

You want to hide….but you’re a grown up, so you force yourself to stay and do the thing you planned to do.

<<You might call this performance anxiety, stage fright, introversion, or high sensitivity.>>

What is it for you - music performance? A pitch to your boss? A group presentation? Sharing your ‘elevator pitch’? Someone simply asks you a question that puts you in the spotlight feeling? Going to a networking event? Interpersonal conflict?

Why pressure brings up panic

All of this is normal human response to pressure. Our conscious brain keeps saying “what’s the big deal, this is no problem, I can do this!”. But your body says otherwise.

When anxiety just doesn’t make sense

In preparation for the Voice-Throat Portal so much past life has come up for healing. Performance anxiety, stabbing pains in my back and lungs, pain and a rash on my earlobe. Weird stuff - but each time it’s tracing back to a bad ending in another lifetime.

Many of us have this - violent endings in other lifetimes leaving imprints at the soul level. Many have to do with the neck and throat area. There’s something in you that remembers, keeping you on high alert, and sending you into panic when under pressure.

While the energy healing week has ended, Laura and I are continuing our collaboration. Accelerated transformation packages available soon. Email to get first opportunity at an application. Marta@InnerArtistry.space

December Hangovers

How are you faring, keeping your heart protected, yet soft and loving, yet engaged with what the world asks of us now?

For me, depression has risen to the surface. I don’t usually experience depression, though I’ve noticed it as a January experience for several years in a row. I have theories…

For example, the boomerang of excess in December, to our cultural norm of austerity in January.

Plus of course, less sunlight, less movement.

Our bodies ask for rest and renewal at this time of year, polarized with our cultural expectation of keep going, never stop.

And the intensity of the world is bringing so many ugly and painful things to the surface externally, it seems that many buried things in me are coming to the surface as well.

There’s a generous side to this December hangover - it brings to the surface our shadows, our baseline imbalances, our depths that ask for help. The roots of our shadows are accessible.

I’m finding this time very fruitful in energy work. I’ve had a number of days in a row of waking with fatigue, one day I was so foggy I felt that I needed to go right back to bed. But instead, in choosing energy work, I’m realizing that the fogginess and tiredness are signals, getting my attention for deep needs. Each day I release more and feel more free and more excited about life.

I invite you to join me in a week of energy healing - Winter Light - for releasing fatigue, depression and grief. In these group experiences, we can cover so much more territory in 7 days than in individual sessions, and more affordable than my private 1:1 rate.

While we all may need to grieve our current human condition, this energy healing week will help the grief move and release gently, and we can dissolve some of the griefs built up through the centuries of your soul lives and ancestral burdens.

Many of the griefs are ready to release without conscious awareness - this group experience is excellent for these buried grief energies.

However you choose to move through these tender and intense days, I wish love for you and for you to be held in deep care. We all need help right now, and may you find just the support and connection you need!

Perfectionism and Precision

Intention: to release perfectionist energies and move towards precision and high standards, with remembering and feeling our human connection and love and support at the forefront. 

What's the difference between perfectionism and precision?

Short answer - perfectionism limits and constrains while precision inspires and focuses.

And why would this topic be relevant now in December, such a busy time of year? 
Well, our patterns get highlighted when stress levels rise. Which makes them more obvious, which then also helps us address them!

I remember when a music colleague first called me a perfectionist - maybe 20 years ago - and I was shocked. I seriously thought I was just doing what everyone needed to do to do their best. 

This is so common in people I work with - we think we're just doing what's expected and normal. But really, our commitment to perfection as an essential goal + an Inner Critic that goes wild when “mistakes” happen = perfectionism. 

It is normal to encounter perfectionism in our culture. That doesn't mean it's good for us on the physical, mental, emotional, or soul levels! 

We can aim towards precision and high achievement, while finding more balance internally. Here are some differences between the two:

>>Perfectionism would have us believe that we can be safer, receive love and connection, get the good award if and when we are perfect. Our worth relies on being perfect and being received as perfect. Perfectionism turns to our Inner Critics and other people's critics as the arbiters of merit.

>>With precision, there can be a high standard for results, but your innate worth is not dependent upon the results.

Precision can be seen as a Divine Masculine quality, launching the arrow with focus and intention into the bullseye.

We all have feelings come up when we don't hit the mark, but with precision, there is growth in moving through the feelings. 
Not achieving the desired result is information, a chance for learning, direct feedback about your skills or preparation or intentions and more. It's an opportunity to surrender to bigger energies, an opening to trust. 

With perfectionism, the feelings become a commitment to double down, get it perfect next time, an effort to avoid these terrible feelings ever again. 

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Perfectionism in creative and high intensity environments

This topic is on my mind as I enter the classical music world again after quite a few years. I'm one of the rehearsal pianists for a wonderful opera production, filled with loving and high achieving people. It's glorious to be showered with these voices and making music together!

AND I notice my perfectionism grooves showing up. Plus there's perfectionism in the air, as the training for classical music has a lot of distortion in its quest for high standards.

So many layers that contribute to perfectionism!

I've been energetically tending to all the many layers that contribute to perfectionism - releasing:
- good girl programming/ people pleasing
- solar plexus collapse (our center of power!)
- self worth based upon other people's opinions
- nervous system balancing
- cording and attachments bringing tension to my body, throat and shoulders
- soul level lifetimes when mistakes lead to disasters. 

Inviting in:

- balance between Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine energies
- creativity and flow
- permission for enjoyment and trust
- sharing love fields to everyone involved.

Addressing perfectionism is not a quick and easy fix. As you can see, a lot contributes to this issue. It permeates our society! It's everywhere! And so often our work or family cultures reinforce the perfectionist way of being, rather than the human, relational shared goals of precision with kindness and connection way of being.

The deeper we address these issues, the more magic unfolds. Perfectionism becomes the trailhead of healing childhood, untangling social programming and cultural norms, addressing ancestral and past lives as well. This one thing can blossom into relief and growth in so many areas of your life!

When stress levels are up, and perfectionism is one of your coping strategies, Inner Artist sessions can help.

If you’re new to Inner Artist sessions, you can either start with a free 30 minute Discovery Call, or you can dive right into an hour session.

One person called Inner Artist sessions “therapy on steroids.” There’s room for talking and feeling into what’s coming up. Your intuitions, knowings, and body sensations are key. And energy work helps move and release the feelings and energies faster and gently.

While Inner Artist sessions are good for anyone, I specialize in working with highly sensitive people and creatives. I get what it’s like to feel overwhelmed all the time and the need to hide from the world, or the need to hide your true self. And this issue of perfectionism + Inner Critic runs strong for sensitive and creative folks - the criticisms and mean energies in the world burn through in a deeper way for you and your heart.

I’m in this with you, for releasing perfectionism and connecting to the deeper truth of our gifts, inherent self worth, and inner compass aimed towards beauty and love.

With love to each of you,

Marta

Soul-level

How is your heart, dear one?

You, as a sensitive soul, may be noticing depth and feelings more than ever. Which has always been true, but now we’re at magnification levels because of intensity and change in personal and macro ways.

In recent weeks I’ve been addressing some of the deep soul level beliefs in me regarding hope, or rather the lack of hope.

This showed up with tremendous despair and feelings of “not this again” and “I’ll never get out from under this”. As I released through it, so much transformed, and incredible newness is taking root.

Among many gifts - I’m way less entangled with any drama, and feeling more natural hope and resilience.

These types of soul-level beliefs are imprints from other lives lived, with circumstances and happenings strong enough that they still want some attention to resolve.

Addressing such longstanding despairs and hopelessness opens possibility in magic ways. We learn that despair and depression are not our natural state, we find it’s a lens through which we’ve been viewing life. The heaviness, the tiredness, the locked out and numbed out state might be connected to things far beyond this lifetime.

And the cool thing is that we can address those things! We can find the soul-level nuggets that are so ready to transform, release, and even alchemize into gifts.

Setting an intention to find and release these is one way. Your path might lead you to just the healer or guide or medicine you need. Or asking for help in dreams. Or going into meditation and asking to be shown the place that needs attention.

There’s so much we can do with our intention, our power, our confidence. And of course, if you need help, I’m here, as are many other wonderful healers to assist you in your next blossoming!