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Spotlight collapse
It’s a frustrating place to be – you have something important to express – and yet you can’t find your best self when the moment counts.
The bigger you, the essence of you, disappears, collapses. And what you find instead is small scared you. Perhaps with extra sweating and body parts that don’t seem to obey your training. And maybe extra bathroom needs. And a brain that can’t think straight.
I know this pain well, as performance anxiety as a pianist brought me into the healing arts in the first place.
That unreliability of my own body – fingers, breath, brain.
Spotlight collapse - 3 realms to address
I’m on a kick of focus around “spotlight collapse” – also known as performance anxiety, also known as stage fright.
This is not just for performers - it’s for anyone who struggles under pressure. That pressure brings a kind of intensity and so much comes to the surface.
It’s a bit like a rainstorm and the sewer system, or the river, or the flood plain. There’s lots of space in theses systems to address water most of the time. But then an intense storm happens (your performance), and the amount of water (your feelings, unaddressed energies) cannot flow all at once.
And then if you haven’t addressed your emotional realm, there’s a lot of backup, taking up space. So your channels for flow are already narrowed because of the build up.
Your natural Pro-Creation abilities
It was my son’s birthday a few weeks ago, and as I do every year, I tune into healing for our shared anniversary. His birth did not go the way I envisioned and I’ve had lots of grief every year around his birthday. This year was my easiest year yet, and the healing was simple and gentle.
I addressed “procreation conflict shocks”. It turns out these can be specific to birth and women’s bodies - as you’d expect - and it can also be for creative life force energy for all humans. Probably our pets too.
Recently I discovered that procreation conflict shocks can also be about the part of the life cycle where energy moves on to its next form. In other, shorter words, death.
>> Conflict shocks - an event or experience strong enough that it imprints on your brain, body, and psyche. Your body and psyche adapt in ways that are bio-logical, but not always pleasant or easy. << >>Procreation conflict shocks are experiences that inhibit your pro-creative abilities. ie - traumas that specifically affect your life force energy and your sacral chakra.
Psychic Attacks
Three possible understandings of what this phrase means and what you can do.
Not everyone means the same thing when talking about “psychic attacks”. I myself have used this phrase when I’m feeling amped up with negative emotions but I don’t have a story to explain it. Sometimes that ends up that I’m feeling the energy of the world/collective, but on occasion it has been an actual psychic attack.
This is how I’m working with psychic attacks when clients ask for help with this topic:
Emotional causes -> physical symptoms
Isn’t it frustrating when you have a physical issue, you know there is an emotional component or trigger for it, yet you haven’t found the way to resolve it yet?
What is it for you? Back pain….tooth decay….memory loss….bone loss….digestive issues…allergies….thyroid imbalance…perimenopause, menopause symptoms…
I remember when I was thoroughly immersed in IFS practices, and knowing that emotions were somehow connected to various aches and pains, but I couldn’t quite get to the root of it.
Cold sores as a manifestation of shame. A terrible infected ingrown toenail connected to new motherhood. Frustration that I could make the connection, but I couldn’t get them to heal, even with applying IFS + acupuncture, homeopathy, etc.
It’s not about being louder
What Happens When the Throat Becomes Free
Freeing your throat and voice channel brings the body, mind and spirit into coherence. Actions and communication from this alignment tap into true power, the kind of power vs force.
Force = yelling; the shoulds
Power = silence, a whisper, a sigh, embodied words, singing, grieving, keening, wailing, linking arms, presence.