Appetite for Life

Depression as Suppressed Life Force

Our Soul's Appetite for Life

I’m feeling into oppression-suppression-depression.

We’ve all had lifetimes of being the oppressor.

We’ve all had lifetimes of being the victim.

We are both in this lifetime.

Some more than others, in various ways.

To the bugs and the weeds and the woman sewing your clothes, you might be the oppressor.

To the tech overlords, you might be a powerless ninny.

In your workplace you may feel used, abused, unseen, undervalued.

In the game of world chess, most of us are treated as pawns - easily trampled and discarded.

The energy field of depression

Turning this kind of energy inward on ourselves, it becomes depression - we are both our own oppressor and victim of ourselves.

In the energy field, oppression-suppression-depression entangle with one another. We learn to oppress our most tender parts. We suppress our soul’s truest desires and a depression takes shape as the desire hits walls and lids and boxes.

We build walls and boxes and armor to protect ourselves from the outside irritation-harassment-violence. But that armor ends up keeping our energy in the suppression and depression valley.

There are powerful forces that want us to stay in these muted, hemmed in force fields. We believe the fields are forceful, impenetrable. The belief is what allows the external to oppress and suppress.

Those grooves get worn, we believe that we’re out of seratonin. We are told we need a pill. We try some pills, injections, drugs, sugar, screens.

(Oh sugar and screens, my go-to soothings.)

For me, I heard last week about the “appetite for life”. In other timelines, that energy of appetite is destructive, devouring people, landscapes, hoarding gold. In this lifetime, the appetite turned to chocolate to sooth and settle and numb.

Unleashing true desires

I’m commanding to awaken my soul’s truest desires and in-service-appetite for life. Like a lion, it has been kept from it’s wild nature, held in safety and softness by walls and butchered meat.

This awakens in me, you, all of us. We’re in this shared field of growth. I hear from many about the depths of exploration and the fertile growth coming to the surface.

The potentials explode and more hope in your cells and on the horizon. More empowerment, more growth. We are on path, on track! You are in right timing!